Apathy Drive

Quick poem I never published anywhere.

If I could escape this town tonight

Where would I run to? 

I don’t care where

But I need to know.

 I’ll drive away in my car

until the empty sign proves convincing

and I park in the ditch on the highway

empty and alone.

I’ll let people pass me and wonder

but not wonder too much

for wondering too much

is not typical of people.

And I’ll sleep there until hunger gets to me

call a tow truck to take me home

where I’ll stay there once again

empty and alone.

 

I’m stricken with the kind of sadness

where you find yourself online

until 4:00 in the morning

searching and searching for nothing

My condition is fatal

it’s killing me every day

I’m too resigned to care

I can’t bring myself to care.

I’m empty and alone

I want to go home

but home is where the heart is

and my heart isn’t here

all that I hold dear

has withered away

has withered these days

I live here no longer.