Muder by Suicide

im drowning in an empty sea

can someone take me to the optimistic shore please

my pain and thoughts fester inside me

the fester untill they sour then they still wont leave

i wish i was still weak before my infestation

because then i would cut myself without hesitation

i need to make to many confessions

before i die without compensation

all my life society marked me as a reject

so now i'd die to know i earned someone's respect

i'd die just to get rid of this feeling of neglect

it's like almost all of my past is a cluster of regrets

i tell people to just keep smiling

even though on the inside im dying

whenever i go home all im doing is crying

its hard being optimistic but @ least im trying

ive been a pessimist all my life

all ive really done is run and cry

being strong is something i don't even try

and to be honest i hate my life and i wanna just die

being numb is something i'd die for

because having feelings is too much of a chore

it ruins my heart to it's inner most core

i wish my innocence was still pure

im drowing in an empty sea

my pain and thoughts fester inside me

ive managed to drown in that empty sea

my pain and thoughts are rotting away with me