A Change of Pace v2

You look happier... I feel happier.

A Change of Pace v2

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A lot has changed.

Some of it was bad.

But some of it was pretty good.

It’s strange to think back on it now.

All that has happened.

I feel like perhaps this is the turning point.

I thought I was in love.

And I wasn’t.

Because it was never love to begin with.

I told a friend about this.

And I told them why.

She simply looked at me and said,

“You look happier.”

And truth is,

I was happier.

Because I know what it should have felt like.

And it wasn’t me listening to him.

Or helping him with his problems.

It was too one-sided.

And he had so much fear.

Unwilling to listen to anyone that tried to help.

In the end,

It only created more problems.

And I’m glad that it’s over.

Because I have something new to look forward to.

And I don’t feel like a problem anymore.

I feel more like myself than I had in a long time.

Sometimes I wonder if I’m just being delusional.

But I realize that I’m doing things I wouldn’t have done before.

Like tell my friends about it.

In the past,

With him..

It took me a long time to talk about it.

I didn’t know why then.

But now I do.

And it’s because I never loved him.

But now..

I told a close friend about a recent change.

And she could hear it in my voice.

This was for the better.

It’s changing me in a good way.

And I can now picture a future for myself.

I’m not stressing in wonder anymore.

I can see people.

I found the dream that I’ve wanted.

It’s not right next to me.

Not right now.

But it could be.

If I play my cards right.

If we really tried.

It would be worth the wait.

I don’t use this word lightly but..

I love this change of pace.