Déjá vu

I got my heartbroken again by the same guy but he doesn't know it and so I wrote this.

I’ve just got this feeling about it all

I know I’ve been here before

My body is telling me to get out before I fall

I try to distance myself but everything about you pulls me in

I shouldn’t feel this way about you

But I do

You’re a thief,

You took what wasn’t yours but you didn’t know

I’d blame you but it’s not your fault

I’ve been denying everything

The way you make my hands warm without even touching them

The way you make me blush just by sitting by me

Or the way you make me smile just by looking at me

You don’t know how badly I want to scream my feelings at you

It’s happened before

I can feel the redness in my cheeks

I can feel the tears flowing down my face

I can feel my hands become sweaty just at the sight of you

I’ve been here but it’s fuzzy

I hate this feeling

It’s all too familiar

The tears,

The shakiness,

The uneasiness in my stomach,

The dry spot in my throat,

The throbbing in my chest even though it feels like nothing's there

I hate to admit it but this feeling you give me

I’ve never had it all before but

I crave it

I feel the need to have it all

Honestly, it’s all a blur

I get dizzy just thinking about it

I can’t breathe when I try to remember whatever it was we never had

These feelings have been here before

Little by little they slowly come back

I don’t know why but I just wish they’d leave me alone

My heart picks up again just at the faintest memory

The smile you gave me when I was down

The warmth you gave me when I was cold

The tone of voice you used when you got close to me

The sound of your laugh would make me smile

The look in your eyes and the sparkle that’s inside

I feel like I’m going to fall over

It’s all too much

Well

Here we are again

I feel like I’m suffocating in the memory of you

My cheeks are bright with embarrassment

My eyes are wet with the thought of “us”

It was never going to happen

Why did I even think I could push these feelings aside?

I’m shocked that I even still had feelings

It’s been such a long time

But you’ve gone again and I can’t help but shut down inside

I remember why I hate feeling like this

Reviews

[Hebe]

Great poem....real and touching, Deja vu ... scary when it brings back all the old familiar feelings!