A Misunderstanding.

A misunderstanding there lead to pain.

I think I’ll burst into tears

I can’t handle all of this pain

Though the pain isn’t mine

The pain affects me in a bad way

I can’t heal

I can’t stop thinking

I can’t stop crying.

 

 

You hit me once

It wasn’t your intention

Though it was mentally

I wont blame you

It was a misunderstanding of mine

Please don’t blame yourself

To get hitten by a car would be less painful

As it was when you hit me mentally

 

 

I looked in the mirror

I had blood shot eyes

How long have I been crying?

1 hour? Maybe more?

Well, my friend took care of me

I ran to her

My eyes were wet

The tears were running down my cheeks

She was shocked

She lead me inside her room

I sat down when she did

Her eyes were filled with pity

It made me even more sad

I’d always said I didn’t want others

To feel bad because of me

Now it’s too late

She wants me to explain

How can I explain what I feel?

It would be a lot easier

If I didn’t delete that text

I couldn’t stop crying

She shooked my arm

Told me to explain as good as I could

She didn’t mind me crying

Though I could see the pain in her eyes

I’ve alwyas been the one who comforted others

Now it’s turned up site down

I’m the one who needs to be comforted

Not others

I hate being the one who needs comfort

I like to help others

It makes me feel good

I was afraid

Afraid of crying

Afraid of losing control

Afraid of let go

of everything I’d kept inside

How would she react?

She forced me to explain it

She knew I had to talk about it

She knew what I would do

If I were alone

Didn’t talk to anyone or anything

 

I started to explain what had happend

I got stuck in some of the words

She told me to cry if I needed it

She didn’t mind

I tried to cover my face

She could still hear the sadness in my voice

She hugged me

Told me to go on

Call him

Tell him how I felt

After 20 minutes I finally called him

I started crying when I were on the phone

He told me he would call me back

There were no signal

He got outside and called me

I explained it again

He apologized

He promised me he wouldn’t be like my ex

As some of my friend told me he was

He wouldn’t cheat on me

Break me down

Hurt me

Or in any case use me as a toy

It was never his intention to hurt me

He never meant to

It was a misunderstanding of mine

 

My friend could taste the swing in my mood

As I’d finished talking to him

I’d been deep down in the dark hole

Couldn’t find any way out

Then he grabbed my hand and lead me back up

He helped me find the light

The light I couldn’t see.

Author's Note

Ignore grammar problems please. Please give me your honest oppinion of this.