Chapter Nineteen

***OLIVER POV***

There was pounding on my door but I ignore it, curling up deeper in my blankets, crushing my castiel body pillow to me as tears leak out of the corners of my eyes. I squeeze them shut, trying to stop the tears but they keep coming. My body starts to shake as a sob crawls its way out of my throat. I bury my face against the pillow and scream my agony. Rolland. His lazy sexy smile, his blonde and purple hair flash into my mind, his scent, his arms wrapped around me, his voice. thousands of pictures of him flash in my mind and no matter how much I try to push them back they are replaced with fresher images. My heart thuds lifelessly, To exhausted to Scream out its pain anymore. I quiet down, my throat burning as the screams ripped it raw. I pull my blanket tighter around me as the pounding at the door starts up again. Rolland. NO He couldn't be gone. He just couldn't! He would walk right in here make a snappy remark and then crawl under the blankets with me. He was going to march in here and wrap his arms around me and hold me telling me that all of this was a big mistake! Yeah that's what he was going to do! I open my eyes and peaking out of my blanket I look around at my empty room, reality crashing in on me again.

NO!

Rolland was gone! he had blamed me for his Brother being taken from him and broke up with me. He.... He broke up with me. The boy I was so in love with, the boy I could picture my life with, getting married, owning an apartment with. He was Gone. All the talks we had had about our future all gone, Crushed, blown away with the wind. The song playing from my Phone reaches my ears and I groan at the Irony.

"I've wasted my nights, You turned out the lights Now I'm paralyzed, Still stuck in that time, When we called it love But even the sun sets in paradise I'm at a payphone trying to call home All of my change I spent on you Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong Where are the plans we made for two? If "Happy Ever Afters" did exist, I would still be holding you like this All those fairy tales are full of s**t One more f*****g love song , I'll be sick" The song sings at me. I whimper. Damn you Adam Lavine for knowing my emotions so well! I throw one of my other pillows at the phone hoping it would stop the music. But all it does is knock it off onto the floor out of my reach, Adam continues to cry out his heart breaking song. I whimper again and curl up tighter, I didn't think it was possible but I manage to. My Face buried into my knees as I cling to my body pillow.

"Rolland! Why did you have to leave me! Please come back! I'll be good I promise! I wont be so annoying, Or whiny. I wont get in the way of things. I promise! just please come back. Come back." I sob, my voice muffled from tears and the pillow. But of course Rolland doesn't pop up to forgive me and take me back. I Peak up from the pillow and my eyes land on the shirt hanging up on the wall. It was the Halloween shirt Rolland had bought me on our date Saturday. He broke up with me Monday and now it was Thursday. I hadn't gone to school, just giving Jeremi my keys so she and Kenna wouldn't have to take the bus. My parents had tried to get me to go but they gave up when they realized I wasn't getting out of bed. I think I was scaring them, no I knew I was scaring them but I didn't care. The one person I knew was always in my corner the one person I knew I could run to in need was no longer there. It was Ironic that he was the one who had hurt me so badly yet he was the first person I thought of to call to make me feel better. How fucked up was that? But I couldn't text him or call him. Jeremi had deleted his number out of my phone, and blocked him from every social media I had him on. She said that a clean break was the best for me. That way when I went back to school next week I could walk in with my head held high. My head held high my a*s. I knew that as soon as I walked in there and saw him I would be a puddle of tears on the floor or run to him begging to take me back. That's why I hadn't gone to school yesterday and today. I just couldn't face him. The pounding on my door tears me out of my depressing thoughts and I finally lock in on what the person was saying

"OLIVER ISAAC FLINT YOU OPEN THIS GOD DAMN DOOR THIS INSTANT!" Jeremi screams pounding on the door in frustration. I crack a small smirk thanking every known entity that my sister Sucked at picking locks. I ignore her and roll over, facing the window and stare out it without even seeing anything. I can still here my sister. "Kenna he isn't coming out. I told you. He wont even come out to eat. He hasn't eaten in the past two days and its scaring us." She says her voice wavering with tears. F**K my sister never cried. My chest tightens. Great, first I hurt the love of my life and now I'm hurting my twin. the first friend I ever had in this world. I sigh, wrap my blanket around me and slowly get out of bed. I stumble as the world tilts at an unnatural angle around me. Well S**t! maybe I did need to eat something. I shake my head and the world goes back to normal. I pick my way to my door and unlock it before quickly going back to my bed. I don't even have time to curl up again before the door is thrown open and two of the most important women in my life come bursting in. I squint and bury my face in castiel when Kenna flicks on my light, the brightness blinding after being in the dark for two days straight.

"Turn the light off please." I beg, my voice weak and unused. Jeremi makes a clicking noise with her tongue and sits on the bed, laying down and wrapping me up in her arms. It wasn't the same as Rolland, not by a long shot, but the simple human contact made me feel just a little better. I clung to my sister and buried my face in her chest, a sob making its way out. She tightens her hold on me and kisses my forehead.

"It's ok Olly. I'm here. Kenna is here" She says and I feel around wrap around my back and can fell Kenna hugging me from behind. I was squished in the middle. Love swells inside me and I lift my head to look at them both. I give them a weak smile.

"You two are the best friend and sister a guy could ask for." I say and let go of Jeremi to give them each a huge hug and kiss on the cheek. Kenna looks at me and wipes away any remaining tears, smiling when they are all dried and gone.

"There's the Olly I know." She whispers giving me another smile, "How about that Oliver smile huh?" She asks, her eyes begging me to be happy. I knew she as well as all my family hated to see me upset. I push my sadness to the side and manage to flash her my toothy grin, though I could see it in her face that it didn't go all the way to my eyes like it should. She sighs and pulls me into a hug, Jeremi this time hugging me from behind. A knock on my door has the three of us jumping and turning to the door. My father was standing in the doorway a look between relieve and worry making him frown.

"Sorry to interrupt the moment but Oliver you have a visitor. He said it was urgent." He says quietly. My thoughts instantly jump. ROLLAND!?!?! I nod my head, quickly getting out of bed to fix my hair.

"Yeah sure bring him up." I say tossing on my wool beanie to cover up my rat nest hair. I hear a squawk from down stairs and hear someone cursing as Beauty must have flown over head of them. My heart sinks. That wasn't Rolland's deep voice. I slink back over to the bed and collapse onto it, tugging the beanie off, suddenly not caring who it was. I curl up in a ball between Jenna and Jeremi as we hear Beauty Fly up the stairs and come into my room.

"NEW BOY NEW BOY!" She cries landing on her perch.

"God Damn Bird!" The person says and my eyes nearly bug out of my skull. I KNEW THAT VOICE! what the f**k was HE doing here!!!! My mouth drops open as the person enters my room looking as nervous as a rabbit entering a fox den

Lucas Carver.

Author's Note

Sorry for the short chapter