Despair

I’m in despair, not because I don’t have enough guts to go through things. It’s because there were many things to do in the past, which I’m understanding now. I’m in despair not because I can't make it now, but because I’ve lost all the excitement I was getting once. When I was a child, I always wished that one day I would earn and provide. But, now I’m missing that kid phase when I can just be me, and not with a dozen titles. Well, It’s too late now, and this life is taking me forward with everything I haven’t imagined or wondered about. 

Day by day I’m getting detached, and I have no space left for new friends and an emotional connection. It feels like my heart is no longer vacant for things, but only for comfort, peace, and happiness from myself not from someone else. Maybe that’s called adulthood, which is no less than a roller coaster where I fall every day and get up with new learnings and lessons. I believe almost everybody feels the same and gets over it one day.