Sinking Into Nothing

And I had that heartbreaking feeling that maybe she'd be better off without me. That she'd be better with HIM.
Such a fool I am. Such a spineless creature. I'm losing myself here. This spiral of darkness, it seems there is no way for me to break it. I have to fight back, but my arms are heavy, my legs still as marble, and I sink. And sinking down and down into the abyss I wonder what brought me here in the first place. How did I end up in this twisted, endless motion?