Oh Doctor, Why?

Oh Doctor, Why?

A Poem by Poe Met Emily

I come to you, to seek your help.
You, and your white coat.
But every word I speak 
is easily dismissed.

I tell you, "I am sick."
You say, "It's in your head."

I weep from piercing pain,
that moves from the right to the middle;
the hunger that I cannot satisfy,
the long days and nights of emetophobia.

I gasp for air when I place food upon my tongue,
my throat closing, my stomach squeezing.
But I want to eat, I'm so hungry!

I say to you, "I am so sick."
You tell me, "It's in your head."

I toss and turn as the pain spreads,
moving across my back and behind my eyes.
I weep and weep,
the world growing so dark.

My skin feels like a million pins and needles,
the water that falls from the faucet
turns my skin purple and pink.
I can barely stand, swaying so weak.
I can barely bathe, crying as I wash myself.

I stumble through the house,
clutching every counter top and chair,
sinking onto the cold floor
just so I do not faint again and again.

I come to you,
You, in your white coat.
But every word I dare utter
is brushed aside.

I cry unto you, "I am getting sicker."
You smile with tight corners, "It's all in your head."

I have not left my bed in over a month.
I crawl around the house, weeping as I go.
I just want to eat. I want the pain to end.

I climb into a chair, and think of sustenance.
I riffle through my bare cabinets for something, anything
that I can stomach and keep down.

I place ice on my face and neck to numb my nerves,
I squeeze my eyes shut as the nausea grows.
And I crawl back into my bed,
wondering why no one will help me.

Here, I lie, my body shaking.
I am scared I will expire.
I am scared my blood pressure will plummet again,
and the seizures will start.

I take shallow breaths,
try to remain calm,
and drift into an hour of sleep a night.

© 2018 Poe Met Emily


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I know someone going through this exact same thing :) sometimes doctors aren't the best solution. Who knows your body better than you? Maybe there are better answers for you elsewhere

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