Sinking.

I am troubled about things better left buried.

It is unhealthy and destroying me so easily.

Do not see the world like I did.

I would rather move on, let it end in peace.

Let it expire out into a distant place.

If I tell you the isolation is there,

A memory of who I once was,

Would you tell me what you're thinking about?

It is a faint foolish wish to be strong.

Here in the truth, there is a lie

That keeps all the memories alive at night.

When are you coming home?

When will my back get off this wall?

You said you would never hurt me, such a liar.

Now look at me --- losing it again and again.

I loved you like the world was ending

A dead weight you've become in my life.

I will not wait to feel like a rebel

A drifting petal across the endless wind.

Happy for you, I am happy for you, my own lie.

But I am miserable, miserable for us both.

I wish it was just myself.

Please, God, erase me.

Keep me alive my Love, I am going down.

Author's Note

06.09.2014