I Wanna Go On A Date

A poem to everyone who still believes in soul mates and Love at first sight

I want someone to take me out on a date. Someone to show me that I am worth more than I feel. Someone who can make me feel special, sexy, and smart. Like I am all the stars in the sky manifested into one body.

I want someone to take me out on a date; but not just anyone, the right someone.

 I know I expect a lot if my partner, but the right one will view it as the most natural expression of themselves. I expect them to be kind, compassionate, and whole. I want them to have interests that are similar to me but with slight varying degrees of opinions so the conversations never get boring.  I want them to think for themselves, and to always push to be better, and to grow.

Most importantly, I expect them to always put me first. To view self care as a way to be a better partner. To want me at parties I don't go to. To text me pictures of stuff that reminds them of me when they are out. To remember what my favorite stone is, and that I prefer potted plants to cut flowers. To view debates and arguments as growing pains for us to be better together. 

I want to go on a date. I want someone to take me out who has eyes only for me. Who smiles and tells me I am perfect, adorable, and sexy all in one breath. Who when they call me a pet name I melt inside. Someone who can debate comics as a metaphor for what is wrong with culture, then blow their straw wrapper at me. I want someone who knows whats up in the world, but instead of being depressed by it, works everyday to make it better, even in small acts of kindness. I want someone who can feed my body, mind, and soul.

I want someone who in the small moments, smiles at me, and remarks how amazing they think I am. Who is impressed with my quarks, and views my imperfections as beautiful. Someone who inspires me, and helps me accept the parts of myself I have long wrote off as ugly. Someone who can take my bitterness and turn it sweet.

I want someone who is not afraid of me, of us, of what it means to really be loved and to love. Who knows one day we may do something stupid to hurt one another, but we can work through it. Someone who is comfortable being vulnerable around me, but strong enough to hold space for us both. Someone who knows that sometimes the best ways to heal is with your partner, and that its okay to open up and cry.  

I want to go on a date with someone. I need my partner to bring out my wildness, to complement it in their way. Weirdness that leaps threw the trees, and splashes in the rivers, then conquers the concrete jungle. Someone who's parts match mine, and all sides of us are fed.

I want to go on a date with someone; but the right someone. Someone who stirs the deepest parts of my soul, and helps me understand  how to really love. Someone who I can give my heart to, in perfect trust it wont be broken. Someone I feel I can not live without, for I would be only a sad half to a whole. Someone that I have eyes only for them, and feel like the entire beauty of the earth is manifested within them. Someone who's ugliest parts still makes me want to kiss their forehead and hold them tight.

I want to go on a date, with my match, my puzzle piece, my Shiva. Because for all the times the world has tried to take it away, I still believe in love at first sight, and one true soul mate. I want my bones to jump, and my soul to shake when I lay eyes on them. Cause I am done with petty flings, one night stands, and broken promises, I want someone destined to be by my side. I want to go on a billion dates with my match for this life.