An inebriate inlove

A Poem by Raphh

Bottle of jack in one hand, I don't like beer
Bottle of rum in the other, burning out my ears
Drinking my life away as if I live without fear
I never watch the sun come up, cos I'm always too wasted
All of my memories, one by one are fading.

To love or to be loved which is of greater importance?
Left wing of right, which is most significant?
Those questions used to be in my head most hours
Now I dont even make it to my bed, I awake in the shower

Every room I enter, I'm greeted with your scent
Everything triggers a memory somewhere underneath
These aches and pains of this hangover

It'd be nice to remember the night before
Or the stranger in my bed who's now sneaking out
My back door

How could I of left you the way I did?
Am I hearing myself right or is the drink talking again?
Maybe it's both;
Mouths on the liquor, I develop courage
Speaking my mind and I forget to think before I speak

Who is this new found heart?
How did you meet her, when did it start?
Why do I care if this will tear whatever friendship we have apart?

Will you ever talk to me again?
Can we ever go back to being more than friends?
Is it too late to try again?
Could we even ever be close friends?

I let the alcohol consume my life
I chose it over being your wife
I'm a wreck and a mess
And Im still spoiling your happiness

Are you happy with her, does she make you smile like I never did?
Is she nice? I bet she's nice
Is she fairer skinned than I?
Does she annoy you sometimes?

I'm a nosy cow but it's because deep down inside I still care
I want to try with you again, I want you here
How do I get over these thoughts of you?
How could I ever meet and fall inlove with someone new?