Loser

Morning feelings about being a loser, a guy who went from being a Bell Atlantic Service Tech. to a loser.

The inner pain is overwhelming.............Nobody cares to even help me............Working on phone lines with a lovely girlfriend...........People love, there's no way for me to condescend............People like it that way, in low life society............A Very sad person, they just want to laugh at me.............People take joy in other's misery...........That's why there's no one that'd think of helping me............Everyday, I wake up a total loser............Inevitably, I'll slip back to being a boozer.............No car, no money, and definitely no honey............Leaves a man as a helpless little bunny............My spine is wrecked and I have no hope............Oh my, no one will talk to me if I get back on the dope............That's the only way society knows how do work...........Let's not speak to him, we'll turn him into a jerk...........Then they'll you by without thought..........Selfish fuckers, in the trap I'm caught............Make a mistake and society will destroy you..........Your skies will never ever be blue............That's just the way society rolls.........They love throwing people down in a hole...........They know this life is all a person has...........They'll destroy it, and all that jazz...........I may not ever have a beautiful girl...........Down the toilet, my life swirls..........My two parents wouldn't give a f**k...........If their son turned into the biggest schmuck...........Mom would just laugh, treat it like a grain of salt..........After all it's not her, she'd never claim fault............Blow it off indeed she would...........Would she want me happy?, If it could...........For some reason I think they'd rather laugh............At a schmuck looking son, a man of half...........Recovery rooms love it, miserable lives...........Most are divorced, they have no wives...........They just laugh at miserable events...........For their life, that acts as stints............They get humor from someone's horrible life..........It's at the cost of someone's strife...........I think that's everyone in society indeed...........It's inevitable, I'll have to concede............Accept defeat of this thing called life...........Never have a loving wife............Nobody would care because it's not them..........God damn life is looking awful grim...........That God damned heart valve makes a bitter thought...........3,000 lives I tried to save, It leaves me distraught...........Because nobody gives a flying s**t about me.............And I'm surely on the way to open heart surgery.............That's the worst feeling in the world.........especially since I can't get a girl..............Society will do what's only fair..........for EVERYONE ELSE, in their thoughts I'm nowhere........Walking around a huge embarrassment........Don't worry people, I'll never be arrogant.........I'm 100 percent totally ashamed...........disgrace to my race, I'm all to blame...........Society can't accept that, they have to make me feel it..........That's so I keep out of the way damn near incoherent..........People have to make you feel it in your heart..........That you fucked up severely, and that's just the start.............I've seen a hundred miserable lives.........They're surely not on the way to any wives.........Constantly reminded that it's all their fault.........Society made sure their life came to a hault.............People are s****y, that's a fact..........They'll destroy someone's life and never look back.