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No description here, for I am terrible at those.

What would it feel like if you wanted to be friends with only one person in your life?

You could let all your fake 'social acceptance personalities' fall and... you could just be you.

That intimacy which very few normal people ever crave... you want it and that's all you really want.

Well, that's the story of my life.

You could look at me and I'd seem like a socially awkward freak.

And I kinda am.

It's like... casual friendships here... casual friendships there...

It really makes no sense.

I want to connect deeply with one person and one person only.

You could say I might be a loner for life.

I might just be.

I look around and feel hopeless...

Will this person try to know me...?

Probably not...

I could live life with her and not care about having to be social to the rest of the world...

Maybe it's you... maybe it's her... I'll never be sure until I am sure.

A heart of gold with few connections to the outside world, it seems.

I am an alien.

I am no predator, but I am no friend.

I seek to understand.

I seek to understand the ways of the normal man.

Yet I am starkly unable to defog my emotional mirrors.

Trust is hard...

One day isn't enough.

A week... not really...

A month and you might touch my surface...

Give me a year of constant trustworthy behavior... I'll be all yours.

Maybe I'll connect with you...

Not so sure...

Maybe...

I hope you'll bear with my avoidance...

Fear surrounds my gentle little core.

I don't want to be hurt.

Author's Note

Excuse the haphazard method of my writing.