Skipped trust

Lovers paranoia

Title: In this moment sitting still ,as exaggerated thoughts spinning ,burning inside so slowly with flash backs of mental abuse . With steady fire seeping pain . cherished memories fliped in the opposite side of what could've been the greater good ,to not only just to torture thy self with paranoia suspicion of happy covered lies to which have lead to be proven as sick and disgusted truths ..do we bribe the scars to heal in-between the torn pages of a burnt book ,?....,climbing escalating with a tense increase weighted sorrows .... Just with a turning surprise of the absence of my significant other with the untold time yet to be given ,....still to be only judged of whatever thoughts yet to be left alone but thoughts to be determined either if life is a literal thing to set aside to put pieces of morals and principals