a bit of my life

I wonder how different life would have been.
If only I could have seen
how beautiful life was that spring
but I never took advantage of the good times life would bring,
but now that I have awaken
all those beautiful times have been taken
nothing I do ever goes well
and everyday i find myself one step close to hell
I try to do things right
but im always having an internal fight
I just can't take it anymore
no matter how hard I try I can't find the right door
somebody help me find the way back
I need to get my life back on track
nothing ever goes right. Just one thing in my mind
why?
why must it happen to me?
this isn't how it was supposed to be
why?
Why must i suffer
and the further I get it only gets tougher

Reviews

[Anita B Jacques]

A great write, a heartbreaking one, full of pain and emotion and you are awake, open your eyes and find your way, thank you so much for sharing your poem. God bless you.
Hugs.

[Nichole R. J. H]

Maybe lose the first 'but' in this;
"but I never took advantage of the good times life would bring,
but now that I have awaken"

What a beautiful piece though, and I feel your struggles. Very nicely done!