me myself a ego death & my truth

wrote this after hitting a bottom that came really close to killing me but wound up saving me from a life with no real meaning or truth...

It took me longer than I care to admit to truly understand that if I dont address these sort of vague misunderstood confusion & darkness issues my mind seems to harbor so instinctively well... Then consciously  reflect .... Do my best to understand or @ least accept these issues and the mystery of what has always felt so bad and conflicted within myself ...At times effecting my whole outlook and self worth to a point of completely loosing all control of my behaviors, my option of making choices and my actions that have time and time again drove away everything that I love and is most important to me ....If I keep running from myself, the longer I keep abandoning my own fears, worries, needs and concerns and just resolve in that believable lie of, I am just flawed and have never or will ever be good enough, the longer i do this  the harder it will be to find the true me the real me ..... 

Reviews

[Goat]

This is a great write, we need to stop running from ourselves and embrace us, before we lose ourselves. Love this, great job!

[Irenic]

you're right,nobody is perfect and once we realize this then we end up being a better person. its nice

[Rayree Parker]

true story !! thankyou for taking the time to read :)!!

[rohit sapra]

I really liked this poem as nobody is perfect and once we realize this then we end up being a better person.

[Child of God]

This is very true and I've felt this way before too, keep on fighting it trust me it's worth it great job kido

[Scott Mou]

I loved the emotion you used in this poem but feel like it wasn't really poetry. It' didn't flow real well and felt like one run on sentence.

[Rayree Parker]

I didn't no poetry had rules ,boundarys and specifics ? Thanks for clarifying the law officer . :)

[Michael (Letters and Li..]

"just resolve in that believable lie of, i am just flawed and have never or will ever be good enough" - Sometimes it's easier to just convince ourselves that we shouldn't try harder because this is just what we are. But I love how the ending plainly says that if we think this way we will never find our true selves.

I love the honesty and emotion in your writing. You truly write from the heart.