The stories they tell

We think that the world is happy and nothing can go wrong. We push the bad things out hoping that they would just go away. And they do. Until they keep coming and they keep building up and you are crushing under the weight of it all just trying to keep your head held up high.

We think that nothing can go wrong. That everything is okay. That you shouldn't care about tragidy and heartbreak until it happens to you. We are all selfish in that way. We walk the streets, right past thousands of people who play the leading role in their own story. You don't know them. They aren't connected to you in any way. They are just the extras in your life. You see their face and then they are forgoten not 5 seconds later.

But they each have their story to tell. They each cary their burdens. They are each running out of time. 

Within 100 years, their stories will come to a close. They will be forgotten and it would be like they were never their. They will only be remembered by those they have connected with. Those who have played a role in their lives and have changed something about that person. They will live on until that person dies. Then what? Then you are only remembered by the stories told about you. Until one day they stop telling your story.

But we choose not to think about this because it is a scary thought. I'm not afraid to die, but I'm afraid to be forgotten. I'm afraid that in 100 years no one will know my name. Which is why I write these stories. I hope that when I die, these stories can still be told or at the very least exist. I know I'll probably die young. But that's ok. I'm not afraid.

I remember when I was 4 and I learned that life isn't forever. I cried for hours because to a sensitive child who was always sick and couldn't be as active as other children, that was a terrible thing to hear. But now i'm learning that it's ok to be afraid. I think we all know that it's ok to be afraid. Which is why we push the bad things out because it's best not to dwell on it.

Author's Note

I haven't written for awhile. I started senior year of high school so i've been busy. I can't believe I've made it this far :)