I miss you, daddy

I miss you, daddy. I miss your goofy smiles when you tell one of your "clever" jokes. I miss the way you used to hug me and never let go, like you were afraid of losing me. I miss your attempts to understand us teenagers. Do you remember that time, daddy, when you said that you would be the one to drive me to prom because you never got to go to your own? In the end, daddy, it's going to be mom who drives me to prom. I miss you, daddy. I wish you were still in my life. Why aren't you here. I know that things happened, I know that you're trying to work through them, I know that it's hard, but I miss you, daddy. So much. I love you. I think about you everyday and when I do, I just want to cry in your arms. I want you to hold me and tell me that it is ok to cry, it is ok to be sad that you aren't here, it is ok to miss you. I want to feel safe with you and I want to wrap my arms around you and not let go. Or else you will leave me...and I fear I will never find you again.

Author's Note

My dad still lives with my family but he is never around anymore....and yes, I am a 16 year old who still called her dad 'daddy.' I'm not ashamed to admit that. It's a word that is comfortable to me. Reason why I'm bringing that up is because at school kids are always like "only babies call their parents mommy and daddy" Anyway, thanks for reading :) This was inspired by a song called 'I miss you daddy.' It always makes me cry. You should look it up if you haven't heard it before

Reviews

[barleygirl]

Even tho your message is about your dad, what jumps out at me is how it reveals YOU! Most young people would be bitter & resentful in your situation, but I love how you focus on the positive. Being a parent is very hard (why I never had kids), parents are only human & their lives become overwhelming at times, so it's very admirable for you to be able to understand this so early in your life. You will go far with this attitude toward people in general (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Robert Trakofler]

This is so sincere and unashamed i loved it. How the things that are right in front of us get mixed up and lost in everyday life especially in times of duress is an absolute crime! The definition of the word parent to any child is.... god. Unfortunately they aren't they are human, and as such... flawed as all of us mere mortals scurrying along the countryside. As i (old guy) look back at all of the precious gifts I missed focused on the unimportant mundane things in life. I want to go back in time and jack slap that idiot...Today my second granddaughter was born and my heart soared holding her and it reminded me of how the feeling of a tiny little hand leading me to play a game of hide and seek is worth a ten thousand heartbeats and i mourn for your fathers losses and want to remind you of all of your value and wonder you made a tear fall from this old bunny's eye dearest Emily! and I send you ten thousand heartbeats of a hug in my scrawl :)

[Faust]

Thank you so much. And congratulations on your granddaughter's birth :)

[Robert Trakofler]

thanks she is so beautiful

[barleygirl]

Thanks to Bunny for his granddaughter share, so touching here & also in his posted poem, which led me here to read your piece, Emily. Both pieces are precious & wholehearted, but together, this share between you two is a gift to the rest of us (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[AYVID N]

I’m so sorry to read this. I wish you happiness and though it seems a distant thought right now, just believe in yourself and life will begin to change...

[Faust]

Thank you so much for these words. I wish you happiness as well