Not A Zombie

Not A Zombie

            I meet with a group of friends once a month. We talk, kid, laugh, and have fun. We also seriously discuss the Bible, religion, other religions, and whatever interests us. For this meeting the topic was prayer, about our prayer life, how we pray and what it means to us. I admitted to them that I have been asking the God within to take over my life. To guide me where to go; show me what to do; tell me when to speak; and put the words that I should say in my mouth. To actually be me.

            “You want to be a zombie”?

            Good heavens No. A zombie is a West Indian superstition. A dead person supposedly brought back by magic power to a form of life in which he can be made to move or act as he is ordered. I don’t want to join the walking dead

            “You can’t mean a puppet”?

            No, I wouldn’t enjoy having someone pulling my strings making me dance to their tune. Nor do I envision perched on a ventriloquist’s knee and speaking his words. Then after his act is over, to sit mute until he speaks through me again.

            “Do you have in mind a robot”?

            Again No. A robot is a mechanical device operated automatically by remote control. They have no life, no feelings, they cannot refuse to obey, even if they could understand, that the order was to kill innocent people.

            “A robot is mindless and stiff. A humanoid is almost human and it may soon be difficult to see any difference between us and them.”

            Right. A humanoid is close to human in appearance and behavior…but it can’t feel. On the bonus side he can’t feel pain, or fear, or lust or hate. On the minus side there are no friendships, no compassion, no joy and no love, therefore no reason to live.

            “You are surely not asking to be a slave”?

            Absolutely not! A slave gets all the hard, dirty work and no appreciation. No, definitely none of the above. I don’t want to be controlled or manipulated by another human. I don’t even want to be just a better human. I am looking for a better Life. I want to be more like Jesus.

            I am truly thankful that our Creator gave us free-will. However, I have found, over the years, that my freedom to choose has been the cause of my troubles, my predicaments, my bad situations and conditions. I am more than ready to give up my free-will, my self-will for God’s will with no regret.

            I pray that my conscience, the Christ within, can still the human part of me and teach me about the real me. That It will show me, lead me, guide me into an understanding of my spiritual self. When the Father-Mother whispers the words that I should speak, it is not a mindless puppet repeating words I was told to say. It is a spiritual child of God joyfully speaking to another one of God’s children, bringing us both up to a higher thought level.

            Jesus said, Luke 17:21 Neither shall they say, Lo here or lo there: for behold, the kingdom of God is within you. I want to find that kingdom and worship the King. Jesus said I can.       

John 5:19 Verily, verily, I say unto you. The son can do nothing of himself, but what he seeth the Father do; for what things soever he doeth, these also doeth the son likewise. (and30) I can of my own self do nothing.

John 6:63 It is the spirit that quickneth; the flesh profiteth nothing; the words that I speak unto you, they are spirit, and they are life.

John 7:16 My doctrine is not mine, but his that sent me.

John 8:26-29 And he that sent me is with me; the Father has not left me alone; for I do always those things that please him.              

John 10:34 Is it not written in your law, I said, Ye are gods?

John 12:44 He that believeth on me, believeth not on me, but on him that sent me.

John 12:49-50 For I have not spoken of myself, but the Father which sent me, he gave me a commandment, what I should say, and what I should speak.(50) And I knew that his commandment is life everlasting; whatsoever I speak therefore, even as the Father said unto me, so I speak.

John 14:10-30 (11) Believe me that I am in the Father, and the Father in me; or else believe for the very works sake. (12) Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me, the works that I do shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do, because I go unto my Father

 

            Jesus humbly acknowledged his total dependence on God.  No one can accuse Jesus of being a puppet. I want to quit being a confused mortal, robbed of my ability to see Truth clearly. I pray to follow Jesus’ footsteps into the kingdom and to be able to say with understanding along with my brother the words he spoke in John 10:30       I AND MY FATHER ARE ONE.   

            872 words    Loretta Ellen Edwards