How you made me feel

Since I can no longer say it to your face, for fear it will fall into the black hole where all my words end up, i write. I remember. I dwell.

As time flew by, you went from the man I wanted to father my future kids, to the man I am afraid of. The man I have to constantly remind my self wouldn't come out of nowhere and hurt me as I walk in the dark.
I love you.
I loved you.
Where was the line drawned between the two sentences?
Your actions maybe. All the failed attempts to fix the broken heart shards between us. You were once my protecter, lover, knight , and king. You were the hand that I trusted to stay by my side , leading me over the rough parts of life.
While everything in me was fighting to stay independent, your lips took the strength from my body, making me feel strong and helpless all at once.
Now we have withered to nothing.
And who's to blame?
Giving it all I had, seemed to fall short. Now you treat me as if i feel nothing.
I am capable of empathy. Are you?
Look at the past, look at your actions and the things you said, and the things you didn't. Don't dwell, but learn. And grow up from the boy you so desperately cling to. To the man you use to be, the man you can be, the man you should and will become.
Remember the smile you use to cause on my face, and learn from the tears you made flow from my eyes.
There is always a way, there is always time. But there isn't enough heart left to break.
So don't.
So mend.

Reviews

[NotchHero]

No one said this was easy. No one said anything in life was easy. What they did say was it would get better, it would get easier. But the things that consume us, the bad habits, the demons, the faults..... They never disappear. They only become easier to deal with in time. I hope the man you want to change is able to. He has the ability to become your knight again... When he does.... I hope he never let's you go.

[zaisham9393]

Ending a relationships can be truly heart breaking!
I wish the best for you!Thank you for sharing!