I shouldn’t have let you in

I mainly talk about betrayal, lost love and how much it haunts us as men. Everyone would think that betrayal only works one way, not. It works both ways, the pain affects both alike.

 

I never meant for you to know me

Never meant to let you this close.

You see, am a creature of pain,

Am always drawn by misgivings,

I tend to stray ways from what is good

But I did let you close-

 

I never meant to show you who I am

Never meant to see the darkness in me.

A darkness I have embraced all this time

You see, am a creature haunted by dark shadows of betrayal

I never tend to hold anything to fruition

Some give up on me, others I betray

But you did see me

Smiled not once but numerous times and did soften my heart.

 

I never meant to let you quench the thirst of adoration my heart sought

Never intended to have you haunt my every dream

You see, am a pathological lover

I hold firm to what I adore

I have but loyalty and hope filling my heart

So, I let you in.

With every pause in my veins crying to hold firm and forget all the pain that might have been.

I kissed you not once

 

My heart wanted but to hold strong

You, naught!

Your smile faded; your hazel eyes drained of the former light

Tell me, how do I exorcize your smile from my dreams?

How do I not turn into that creature that little girls are warned against?

Reviews

[Abdulfaraj Suheila]

So deep and captivating. keep up the good work.

[3liud]

Thank you Sue. I will do my best to.