I'm hopeless

why can't I just talk to him?

Outside, 

I politely nod and smile

not a sound escapes me 

besides a simple yes or no

I'll laugh at his jokes

I'll keep my distance when I can

I won't say hi

unless he says it first

anyone could say I'm harsh, mean, inconsiderate

and countless other horrible things

but really 

I'm just shy

and inside

a war is going on

my heart aches

my stomach hurts

I feel like I'll burst with joy

everytime he talks to me

and a  mental war continues

he likes me 

he hates me

I like him

he'll never know

It's hopeless

but is it?

because even after

seeing me talk openly with friends

then be quiet and awkward around him

after responding politely, then running away

he keeps coming back

Reviews

[Wyrn Tiger]

Silence is the best option for your self. It enables you to see the world. If your loud you miss things

[Carmen Williams]

Sorry for not responding sooner, I didn't really understand what you meant when you first commented this, but I get it now. Thank you :)