Wishes

I wish I had a family,

Not dysfunctional, 

But one that cares.

I wish to have a father,

Who does not tolerate violence,

Nor support it in any way.

I wish to have a mother,

Who is her own leader,

And is not a follower.

I wish to have a sister,

Who loves people,

For who they are.

But I will never get that wish,

My parents are on life sentences,

My sister, she's gone.

Now all I have is my foster father,

One that is all of my wishes combined,

Loving, caring, protective.

All that I've ever wanted.

Reviews

[Matching Socks]

This is so special and heartbreaking. It's not the blood that connects us as family, it's our hearts.
I'm glad to read this happy ending.

[1Disawsum]

Very true, I'll keep that in mind! Thank you xxx

[armin]

is it based on your real life, coz the emotions came out really well.
armin. ..

[1Disawsum]

Yes, it is, thankyou! xxx My "parents" are on life sentences with no thought of being on parole, and no bail options, because of their actions in domestic violence/abuse. Verbal abuse, hitting, kicking, punching and burning me. Physical damage and mental damage (I have anorexia, had bulimia, still have suicidal thoughts- tried to end my life a few times- and I also have depression and anxiety. And I cut) so yeah... don't know where my sister is, and I don't care at all. She never helped. Thanks for your comment, much appreciated xxx

[armin]

oh my God, you told me all I think you are so open to say anything.
And please don't try to commit anything wrong, maybe your family is disfunctional but please keep the hope. Just concentrate on becoming something, something big, life is not to loose life is to win. Just win over your problems there is an old quote in india.
If you will help yourself,
God will help you.
And am still not able to believe that your family is that bad. You must follow your ambitions and dreams and be a big person. Everything will be fine. Don't loose faith.

[1Disawsum]

haha Yeah, I guess I am. I've had to tell so many people about my story, so why not tell it online too? Nobody here knows me, nobody at my school knows my username on here (so they can't bully me, they don't know me!)
They're not my "family". Doesn't 'family' mean to support each other through thick and thin? Doesn't it mean unconditional love? Nope. I never got that throughout my entire life. Those people whom I'm supposed to call 'family' are pure strangers to me now. They're more than dysfunctional, they have problems. Ones that will never be fixed, I guess.
But my foster father now is, as I said above in the poem, all my wishes come true! Now I've realised that I CAN get help without feeling like I'm useless, and I CAN win my battles. Life is still not all that happy for me, but I am getting there! Embracing myself is the first key to being happy, in my opinion. :)