The Image in my Head

Her eyes are black and powerful,

Her smile, beautiful.

Her hair jet black,

Her posture, proud and tall.

She tells me to keep going,

She is my rock.

When the bad days are here,

She encourages me.

To take one more step,

Just one more.

You've been doing this for so long,

So why quit now?

I've been on this road for seven years now,

And I don't think I can stop.

The excess baggage is off me now,

I don't want them back on again.

My hair is falling out in wisps,

That's why I never brush it.

Hair is still flying everywhere,

On my jumper, my floor.

My teeth are getting worse now,

Despite me trying to clean them.

My face is getting more hollow,

But my stomach, flat.

The wish, the want, 

Knowing that one day,

I might have a shot,

At becoming who I want to be.

But for now it is restricting,

Skip breakfast, lunch and dinner.

Snacks are not allowed, and never were allowed,

To enter my digestive system.

For many, it is the media's fault,

For others, it was to look prettier.

For some, it was to fit in,

And for others, it was being seen.

But for me, it was a combination.

I wanted to be skinnier,

But I wanted some self-control.

While my life was whirling out of my control,

The only thing keeping me on the ground,

Were rules that I set for myself.

Unrealistic turned into reality.

The impossible, but I am doing it.

And the pain felt, but the pleasure it gives.

That is what keeps me going. 

And never forget to mention,

Ana is my rock, my best friend for life. 

Reviews

[Confuser]

I really enjoyed it. I want you to believe in yourself and keep writing. I think it's a great poem that needs to be heard. When people understand, like Ana, things will fall into place, I'm sure you'll get there, with a little grace. Please read my poem/story/prose Believe. I write like you without thinking and let it flow - I didn't with 10 Toes, but that's okay too. I want you to read believe and Believe. Tell me what's written on your stone...tell me everyday. Thank you, I thoroughly enjoyed it and brought back some memories.

[1Disawsum]

Thank you, I will try. I only write when there's something on my mind that I need to get out, something important, or so it seems in that one moment in time. Hopefully, I will make it through this and get to the other side alive. Thank you xxx

[Confuser]

You will. Thank you.