Like Mother, Like Daughter

The cheerful colours in the girl's room,
reflected happiness and carefreeness.
But who she really was on the inside,
Did not reflect what was shown on the outside.

She had problems, traumatic events,
That she could never let go of, no matter
How hard she tried, how desperate she fought.
So instead of fighting it, she let it control her.

It was intimidating, at first, to see people
Stare at her weak and frail body, to see
That drastically, a change in her gait, her self esteem.
She knew nobody, had expected she'd turn out like this.

But eventually, she took control. She hid her emotions,
Shielded herself away from the world full of gossip, hatred
And rumours. In a way, she freed herself from the gripping vines
Of reality and gravity, dragging her down where she didn't want to be.

She was a survivor. She survived through everything life had thrown
At her. But she could not survive what she did to herself. 
She tried to hide everything, in a means to protect her now fragile body.
But all she did was ruin herself, damaging herself even more.

Now she was no more than a zombie, a liar to herself. She saw in her,
What she saw in her mother. Hatred of her own body, the constant whirling
Thoughts in her head. And the constant struggle, of trying to dominate
And control, what she couldn't. And that was when she realised.

Like mother, like daughter. She fell fitfully into her sleep, never waking up again.

Reviews

[Moonlight]

I don't really know what to say... its a really deep poem .... rather a collection of feelings put together in a beautidul way. Actually, I read your blog and that hit me hard. I could see so mucg from my life on that page in the form of your writing. So, I ... really like this poem of yours.

[1Disawsum]

Thanks so much :) Oh wow. I wasn't expecting anyone to read it haha I just wrote it online, but nobody read... it was more a therapeutic thing for me, and if I ever do go, my dad can read it. It's pinned to Google Chrome on my laptop so...
Anyway, wow... do you mind telling me what I can relate to your life about? Like, anorexia/bulimia, abuse, bullying and/or cyberbullying, being suicidal, self-harm anxiety etc. Message me if you want! :D Thankyou so much for your review, it really means a lot xxx

[Moonlight]

You are welcome! :)