Drowning

I let them tease me,

I let them taunt and bully me.

Realising there's no point in stopping.

My words will not be heard,

My pleas and cries for help,

Ignored.

I let them put me down,

I let them do whatever they want to me.

I know I'm helpless.

I'm struggling to keep up with life

As it is right now.

I can't keep up this fight.

I'm drowning, slowly but surely.

And for the first time,

I'm not sad.

I'm drowning in the sea of words,

I'm drowning in the pool of people.

And I'm drowning in my despairs.

I let myself be bullied,

I let myself become vulnerable.

I let myself become an easy target.

Despite my desperate cries for help,

Nobody give me, a second glance.

Nobody comes in, and saves me.

Next time I'll be my own saviour, 

Next time I'll be fighting,

Next time I'll be braver.

Yet I know,

There will be no 'next time'. 

This is the end.

I've finally given up this fight.