suicide

a depressed boy tries to drown himself

I went down to the river, so I could drown. Looking up threw the water I kept sinking down, down, down. My lungs screamed for air, but I didn’t let my body go back up. I took a large gulp of water, the pain slowly faded into blackness….

I woke with a start, coughing and spluttering water and blood everywhere. There was a girl leaning above me looking at me worried. She turned me back over onto the ground so I had my back to the floor. I could feel the slight pinch of a rock under my back, making the soft ground feel like a torture chamber. Why did she save me? I’m just a stupid boy wanting to die, and I was so close. The one time I get the guts to kill myself this blue eyed, auburn haired girl saves me. WHY? She pushes my short blonde curls off my face and looks into my brown eyes; I think she’s making sure I’m still alive. When I try to sit up she lifts me, so she’s half carrying half dragging me to a boulder and she sat me up leaning my back against the freezing rock. “wh-wh-why d-did you” I choke out.

“Shhh. It’s okay, now. Don’t talk. I found you while visiting my favourite river, it’s okay you won’t die today” she coaxed, I don’t know why she thinks I was just casually drowning, it’s not a deep river. I start to feel faint so I relax against the rock and fall asleep.

I awake in a room that’s completely white. I can hear a slight beeping in coming from behind me but I’m so sore I don’t feel like I could move. I suddenly realise where I am. THE HOSPITAL!  No I can’t be back here, I don’t care how sore I am I rip the tubes off my arms and run out of the room in nothing but a hospital gown, which feels like I’m just wearing paper. I am being chased by a nurse but I am faster, I leap through the door before anyone can stop me. Running through the car park feels like I’m running to a new death, but she appears in front of me, I bump into the auburn haired girl.” Hi, I’m Emily” she says, laughing. As the nurse lifts me off her, I can see in her freckled cheeks and chubby face, someone who can save me, from myself.