DeathA Poem by Kianna L. BeardenI hate my brainThe movies and books paint death like a picture A pretty little picture Wrapped up in a bow of unspoken words and clear tear drops Mixed with the rain drops falling on clean black clothes How do I know it's different? I haven't lost anyone close A few dogs, but they're only there a short time A grandfather when I was young, but I was too young to comprehend I thought death didn't affect me That I was somehow immune Able to shrug it off like one does a bad grade on a test they'll never remember But no Like a bullet, it hit me I'm so f*****g scared Of death Of losing the ones that have been my entire life What do you do when you have no one left? I don't want that day to come When I raise my head up and realize I'm the only one left My mother's laugh, as loud and as vibrant as she was My father's jokes, hilarious to anyone that bothered to listen My uncle's stories, and the irrelevant tangents they often became gone Only retained in hazy memories and old, outdated technology I'm so f*****g scared Of the day when I realize that the name "Bearden" My name would disappear with me Should I ever decide to never have children I don't want to be alone I still want to be held when I'm sad And kissed on the forehead when I'm happy I want to be hugged, and loved I don't want to grow up I don't... I don't want to... I don't want to be alone
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Added on July 17, 2016 Last Updated on July 17, 2016 Tags: Sad, why brain why, I'm only 17 AuthorKianna L. BeardenGoldsboro, NCAboutI made the mistake of aging past about 16, honestly. more..Writing
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