Death

Death

A Poem by Kianna L. Bearden
"

I hate my brain

"
The movies and books paint death like a picture
A pretty little picture
Wrapped up in a bow of unspoken words and clear tear drops
Mixed with the rain drops falling on clean black clothes

How do I know it's different?
I haven't lost anyone close
A few dogs, but they're only there a short time
A grandfather when I was young, but I was too young to comprehend

I thought death didn't affect me
That I was somehow immune
Able to shrug it off like one does a bad grade on a test they'll never remember
But no
Like a bullet, it hit me

I'm so f*****g scared
Of death
Of losing the ones that have been my entire life
What do you do when you have no one left?

I don't want that day to come
When I raise my head up and realize
I'm the only one left
My mother's laugh, as loud and as vibrant as she was
My father's jokes, hilarious to anyone that bothered to listen
My uncle's stories, and the irrelevant tangents they often became 
gone
Only retained in hazy memories and old, outdated technology

I'm so f*****g scared
Of the day when I realize that the name 
"Bearden"
My name
would disappear with me
Should I ever decide to never have children

I don't want to be alone
I still want to be held when I'm sad
And kissed  on the forehead when I'm happy
I want to be hugged, and loved
I don't want to grow up

I don't...
I don't want to...
I don't want to be alone

© 2016 Kianna L. Bearden


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Added on July 17, 2016
Last Updated on July 17, 2016
Tags: Sad, why brain why, I'm only 17

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Kianna L. Bearden
Kianna L. Bearden

Goldsboro, NC



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