Forgiving a memoryA Poem by Kianna L. BeardenThe woes of a 13 y.o. girl.My mom was young; And so were you, yet you broke her heart completely in two. You left us for beer and the thrill of drugs and crime never knowing exactly what you left behind.
That was many years ago, exactly how many, i do not know You've been a ghost A half-known dream What do you think, to me, that shows?
My mother tells me of your misdeeds How your love was strangled By reality's weeds.
She told this to me yet i wished still to meet you or talk just to prove you were real.
And talk we did but with half a heart Alas, shortly after You were again arrested And our thread of a relationship Was torn apart.
After you did this to my mother and I i'd be absurd to forget it and yet i must try to forgive you at least, ease your pain or is it my pain? I am not sure I know anymore.
I can never forget that you left us like that but I must remember that you actually came back and tried.
With this in mind i say that i forgive you And have gone my own way You are little more than a memory Half faded away And now you are gone Drugs coursed through your veins Too much, it seems For you to handle Whether accident or purpose It matters not To the girl you left behind Feelings to rot I cannot help but wonder Did you ever care? Was it guilt that choked your veins The day you wrote that first letter? I'm scared That my future brings What you left behind, Drugs and crime Since I have your face Your red hair, your blue eyes. What if I also have a small amount Of what led to your demise? They said you were crazy, schizophrenic Well it runs in the family I guess. Since my mind is a mess. I don't know what I expected When the call came About your death Your last breath On this earth. I felt nothing, I still feel nothing Except maybe a little bit Of curiosity. Who were you? Am I really such a mirror image Of the man you were? This girl you left behind. But alas, you are gone. There's not much I can do Except forgive Don't forget! I won't ever forget But at least I have those last letters Proving what you tried to do. Now I look up and smile. Try to every once in a while Remember your face Or your place In my life Though every blank I draw Is just another straw On the camal's back I will try To lighten the load. Your memory is sold. I wish you luck Where ever you go.
So goodbye, forever My not so real father. © 2014 Kianna L. BeardenAuthor's Note
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2 Reviews Added on July 9, 2012 Last Updated on January 8, 2014 Tags: Seperation, wrong choices AuthorKianna L. BeardenGoldsboro, NCAboutI made the mistake of aging past about 16, honestly. more..Writing
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