I Failed Miserably

I don’t know why this is happening

Happened, actually

I should probably use past tense when talking about us

 

I was already hurting when I came to you for comfort

I expected open arms

Sincerity, concern

Little did I know, you’d f**k with my emotions even more

 

They say the perfect targets are the ones who don’t even see it coming

I guess you picked yours wisely

 

I was f*****g clueless, f*****g stupid

You left me feeling completely useless

 

I never had the pleasure of sharing all the other stresses in my life currently

Now you’re added to that list, does that really make you happy?

 

Well I am not happy, as you could have assumed

I was clearly nothing to you,

A faded memory you’ll soon lose entirely

 

I’ll have to accept that, someday I will

Right now it’s too soon

This pain is too raw,

These feelings so cruel

 

I don’t believe you fully understand, the extent of my discomfort

I tried to show you I was strong, I failed miserably

Talking to you again, it pains me to see how unmoved you are

 

Until it really is okay

I’ll fake it, pretend

So far I haven’t even been able to keep that going well

But I need to make a promise to myself

I cannot let this break me more than it already has

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

Author's Note

Some.. strong.. language, I know.
But it wouldn't be the same without it.

Reviews

[thatbryngirl]

this is a good write:)

[deeps]

I’ll have to accept that, someday I will
Right now it’s too soon
This pain is too raw,
These feelings so cruel

I like this stanza this is a powerful write.
It's quite okay to write out how you feel.
This is amazing!