Thank you friends

Hello, don't take this the wrong way... I'm not going to kill myself or something... So don't go that far

When I was young, I had no one

No friends, a family sure

But they knew nothing about me

I was just there, a lost kid in a family of five others

I just happened to fall in the middle

Lost my place in everyone

And was unable to be found

For the longest time I talk to no one

I was silent and trapped

Yet everyone believed I was happy

I wouldn’t let them believe

I was so alone inside

No one really seen me

Unless they were picking on me

So easy to pick on the person who just sits there

Ignoring, doing nothing

And easy target

Pushed to the ground

Yell as in the halls

Laughed at and stabbed

Walked on

Sat on

Spit on

That was me

I wasn’t happy

Nowhere near

But as I, sit here trying to dry my tears

I realize…

It was better alone

No one understands me

When I make a friend

I open up

I open my big mouth

Say something I regret

They leave me

With a heart that is slowly breaking

As I cause them pain

Leave me now friends…

Before it is too late

Live before I kill you

Before I say something, you could never forget

I am happy to have had them

But I know now I am better alone

Look at it this way…

You are alright…

No one deserves me

But not in the way you mean

Reviews

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I know where you're coming from with this Ashley. The part about the family rings a bell in my own life. I guess the normal families turn the blind eye to the issues, while in my life, the messed up family simply ignores all.
But i'll tell you as i see it. These people that you think you've hurt by your actions or words. They weren't hurt by you. They were already hurting in their own lives before you ever knew them. It was their lack of empathy into your feelings that made them lash out or throw up childish walls of indifference.
I'll agree that you were happy to have them. When they were there, they made your world more complete. Filling the holes left by a life time of being the invisable one.
Even with everything I've had to endure, I've come to understand a solid truth. Joy is only attained by connection, not isolation. While I've need time's where I could be alone to hear my own thoughts. It's been finding those people that are solid in their loyalty of friendship and positivity that's allowed me to heal. The broken can't help the broken.
Please remember this if it's the only thing you read. You can never kill those who honestly love you.

Peace Ashley,
Ash

[Wolfwind Words]

I could write a three page comment to this. but, I think i'll just leave it simple.

Hugs! Hands you a tissue.
Hands you a cheese stick and says, "You shall always have a friend here."

A poem from your heart and soul, beautifully writen.

Wolfie

[Liza]

we go through transitions
when we are discovering the world
and sometimes the world is discovering us
transitions of familiar to unfamilar
its an ever changing process
sometimes we think we are being ignored
and other times we think we are the center of the universe
so many of us self centered
we forget to look at another
the word deserving should be diminished
we are all worthy
this write triggered lots of insight
thanks for thanks.

[MiidniightSoul]

Well, you've written a really sad and tragic poem. It's very well written, full of emotions like sadness and even anger. Everybody says or does things that he will regret later, but that doesn't make you any less of a person. Probably you haven't found a true friend yet and that's why you prefer loneliness. If you find that person, someone who truly cares and loves you, even in rough times stays by your side you will no longer embrace loneliness. It's one of the purest feelings, feeling loved and secure. Of course, there are so many people you use and hurt others for their own entertainment. But they're the ones who don't deserve anybody. :)