What no one else knows

I try to hard to be strong

I fall; I smile and get back up again

I do not give in to any pain

I have learned that it will just cause more

For get, the prayers forget my cries

I have learned from only my eyes

That no one will save me from my own demise

Why cannot one understand?

Sand in the eyes

Blood in the veins

The world so hot

But I so cold

Slowly I am dying

Yet somehow keep leaving

I do not learn from my past

I never really will

Through the silk and take curtains

I want and want more

We all see the oceans filled with death and dread

Yet in our heads, it is beautiful

We see the ones we lost and loved

They walk on by

The do not care

As I glare at the dead with a cold hard stare

I cannot bear

Yet they believe I have no fear

No one see the tears bottled up inside

The sand in my eyes not the ones making me cry

The pain in my wrists, the nails in the soles the hole in my heart

Not causing this disaster

Kill me now, as you had him and her and they

Why do I have to pay, by watching them all go?

Why is death the end, where all must go?

I can cry, and cry and cry, but no

I cannot today, or tomorrow or so

Because they all die, and soon I will go

My body is dry from salt and tears.

Reviews

[tynamite]

Hmm. It's time to tell you my assumptions.

To me, this is either about loneliness that I've suspected you've had for weeks, or about that boy who doesn't want to know you, who is being used by some girl who plays boys. You can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped. He doesn't want to be helped, and he likes the self inflicted pain that the girl will give him, and in the back of his mind, he knows that she's going to hurt him for definite, but he's willing to take that risk. And in a way, you don't want to be helped as we know you're sad but we have no idea why. This is the life you live. You didn't have a say. You didn't choose this life. It's not even about help, it's about acceptance.

What's this about "I do not learn from my mistakes" rubbish. Ignorant comment I know. You should go to my profile and read the 2 comments you made about your lunch food, and then think about how much self worth I think you have. And those comments came after I said I didn't like the line where you blamed yourself.

I'm reading this asking myself what I'm reading. It's just messed up.

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

This is very sad...
I really think that you put your heart into this. Great poem. Thanks for sharing.

[David W Moore III]

very intense. your emotions are popping off the page. well done. No one sees the tears... we do in your writing. I am the same. My mask for the world is quite 'jolly' for lack of a better term, however what's inside has a lot more darkness. Nice poem

[Alicia Schroeder]

very emotional words. I like it.

[Wolfwind Words]

Alot of emotions flow free with your words. Everyone at times deals with the grief, loss and sorrow that seeps through your ink. Everyone gains there own unique view on this planet and the pains they see within it's machinations. I myself have felt what you describe.

Powerful Ink Ashley!
Hugs!
Wolfie