I hate writing!

it is ironic that my first post here will be about how i hate writing.How desperate and helpless does someone have to be to voluntarily afflict themselves like this. seems like some sort of cruel joke i am playing on myself. I am just completely frustrated with writing. I want nothing to do with it but here i am. 

What lead about up to this? well, currently i am taking a course in writing and failing miserably. I really thought that this would be a chance for me to start over with writing. I promised to leave the past in the past and  hold nothing against writing. But, now it all comes flashing back...nights of hard work only to get mediocre grades. Now it is all clear, i hate writing. Part of me still  doesn't to give up. Maybe, if i just immerse myself into an ocean of people who love writing. I will come out drenched with that thing that all good writers have. I don't think writing is supposed to be this miserable but it is, it is for me. I cringe at the thought of writing, then why am i forcing myself to suffer like this. Why can't just accept it, that we will never workout. I mean if writing really hates me this much, why i am i even trying. Perhaps, i should just let it go and pray that we never cross paths again. But that is absurd! writing is everywhere, it is hell bent on making my life miserable. I hate its guts but i cannot live without it. It doesn't matter how far i run or how fast i run. Where will i run to exactly....where can i run? Maybe if i just move to france or italy, maybe spain or china...where can i run to find safety from writing. No where! I am doomed. I thought studying something that had nothing to do with writing would set me free. What the heck does an engineer need to know about writing...Everything! I really thought it would work out this time around, I had all my hopes built up. Now they have come crushing down. I am sad really, hurt that writing cares nothing for my efforts. But, i wont give it the satisfactions of tears. Since i don't mean a thing to it, i will just pretend it is not a big deal. 

Reviews

[matrixmark]

I hate writing, hmm...interesting. I feel a lot of frustration,anger and moments of 'ahhhhgh!' in this piece. But was I also thought is that writing is a like a magnet to you and it reels you in to well....write. Its not easy, never easy to get the words out from your head and onto paper as you would like them. I have many,many books and they have helped me massively to the advanced stage to which I am at now.
I liked also like the passion which was in this piece too, it came out loud and clear.

KEEP WRITING.

Mark.

[Relic]

We write because we love to. To be really good, you not only have to write everyday for hours, you have to read a ton of books. Not all of us have the time to do that so we do it for fun.

If you want to write, just write.