Arachnophobia

nightmares

we’re so distant,
i can’t even tell her why
i can’t sleep anymore.

 

i can feel
four pairs of segmented legs
with two body sections
and bloodsucking fangs
crawling all over me.

 

and i see people assassinated
friends commit suicide
family members massacred

 

i’m surrounded by death
locked in its trap
and i can’t get out

 

arachnophobia
and a schizophrenic mind
add in some misanthropy
and the ability to see death
…now you know me.

Author's Note

Yes, this is real. Yes, I do see people die in my dreams. Yes, I am severely arachnophobic--spiders, scorpions, ticks--and yes, I am misanthropic. And yes, finding an image for this did make my skin crawl and my eyes water.