Is there something wrong with me?

A poem about reflection

Is There Something Wrong With Me?

Sitting up in bed
reflecting on the past
Observing my single life
and how I am the last
Friends all have partners
I’m victim to their love
Having to witness every second
claiming they are sent from above

I’m there to comfort the arguments
I’m here if your alone
I’m anywhere you want me to be
Even if your spiteful words I don’t condone

They are only in the moment
when your anger is at it’s peak
Listening to friends slate eachother
Then be totally in love within a week

Now I’m always the friend
the third wheel on a date
The person you feel sorry for
Who wants to stay out late
But your lives together change you
And now its early nights
The only time I see you
Is after one of your fights

Then I’m here to comfort the arguments
I’m here if your alone
I’m anywhere you want me to be
Even if your spiteful words I don’t condone

I continue to reflect
looking at pictures from the past
Wondering what I do
to make my relationships never last
Perhaps I’m too needy
wanting to hold you everyday
Is it a sin to tell you I love you
When you make me feel that way
I observe the long lost smile
I rarely choose to show
Always being the dumped
Never letting go

Do my friends wish me happiness
Do they really care
For I’m the person they come to
In any time of despair

I am the listener
the comforter
the blend
The fixer
the negotiator
I’m just Ashley
The vacant friend 

I long for a time when I can say
I’m busy this time around
I have my girlfriend over
The one that I have found
I can’t be there to help with this argument 
I’m sorry I’m not alone
I can’t come to meet you
Don’t spite my friend
I’m hanging up the phone

But I don’t think I could do that for I am just too nice
My life is incomplete without love
I’m always the sugar and I crave for the spice
It breaks my heart to be lonely
a tear drop has come loose
The thoughts of my lonely life
Acting as a noose

So is there something wrong with me??
I’m everything and more
I will give you my entire world
Be the person I adore
Just let me taste love one more time
Its sweetness I do crave
I’m willing to open up my love
Even the heartbreak I will brave

One day is all I want
just to feel this way again
And Ashley blacks world
you will surely reign

Author's Note

I wrote this whilst looking through some old pictures

please be honest as always

yes its me in the picture

Reviews

[Tarik]

This is so touching. After reading this i locked myself up in the bathroom for about two minutes, before i returned to write down this review. I can't explain. It's as if you've encapsulated my feelings here. I feel the same; so lonely, so misunderstood. My fears are nearly the same as yours. I'm afraid that one day my best friend will get married and forget me, and then, i'll remain all alone under the shades of my languid thoughts.

[ashleydawn]

This was absolutely stunning. You have such a talent at describing emotions that even those who may not be able to relate directly can feel the thoughts and emotions you describe. I am in awe of your talent. In reading different works of yours I keep seeing different sides of you, and I haven't quite figured you out yet. This seemed like the most personal, deep, emotional side I have seen though. Thank you so much for sharing.

[Chris Smith Welshpoetcs]

This is so open, written with honest reflection, of wondering who we are in ths world. In the end, you are you. That is what makes you stand out from the crowd, a caring friend, a shoulder to lean on. It makes you special. Excellent poem.

[Apathy To Empathy]

I cried at the security I felt within the poem. (And nice pic :}) and at the loneliness and missunderstanding too. I felt like you are me, only a guy. And I know what you're going through, feeling like the third wheel, and wondering if any one will love you. I struggle with it day in and day out.

Great, great write.

[sentimental~ galore]

sometimes those who feel the most lonely are actually the ones with the most love around them. extermely exiquiste work. your an attractive guy and beautiful writer...i mean i would have a huge crush on you if i knew you. lol, no worries...your not a third wheel, you just haven't met the right girl yet. love has its place for everyone, in time your place will unfold. =] take care, and lighten up. please.

[Skoo.]

This is amazing, I absolutely love it, especially the line "I’m always the sugar and I crave for the spice". 100/100 (:

[Mauricio Montoya]

Wow! I can relate to this piece in many ways, you words hold a great command in what you’re trying to convey, I sometimes wonder when two cross a path, is it right, is it wrong, will there be chemistry or just wind passing through the night.
Excellent write.

[FaithfullyJennyBear]

This is actually amazing! I love the way you write and I can relate to this one too, You have a gift, and you use it well x

[Ginger]

I can relate to this and I often wonder this myself at times. Job well done.

[Sherbs Dreaming Tree Of..]

Fantastic work as always man :)

[Winters_Lost_Walk]

I love this poem!!! It is beautiful! It is hard to find love, true love, but once you find it, don't ever let go. Because it is wonderful.

I especially like the parts:
"I continue to reflect
looking at pictures from the past"

"wanting to hold you everyday
Is it a sin to tell you I love you
When you make me feel that way
I observe the long lost smile
I rarely choose to show"

and the best line ever:
"I’m everything and more
I will give you my entire world
Be the person I adore
Just let me taste love one more time
Its sweetness I do crave
I’m willing to open up my love
Even the heartbreak I will brave"

I enjoyed reading this so much!! Will read more of your writings :D

Nice work!!