Hold It Down

A poem about bulimia

Hold It Down

Looking at the putrid food its stench inviting to some

gaining weight is all I see my fingers act out a gun

forcing them inside my throat screaming for families help

but that’s only inside my mind my body tells a different story

I look at the magazines these idols I wish to share their glory 

another meal to avoid as the hours pass

 releasing this effort of eating

my sickness I do well to mask

A knock and then an entry not enough time to think on my feet

I breakdown whilst I look at my idols I must accept defeat

sitting in the counselling with the elephant telling me its wrong

no food to spare in her home I’m sure she knows where I’m coming from

sitting now awaiting a plate of food a salad to keep in shape 

but what is presented to me is that food I hate

slow bites of these greasy pounds gained with every swallow

smiling after a few more attempts but I know what is to follow

A dessert its grand appearance sickens me to the core

no longer smiling no longer trying hold it down no more 

I arrive in the bathroom a welcomed bin for the pounds

I know there waiting by the door listening to familiar sounds 

The food released my figure slim my idols ive done proud 

my family are disappointed 

I tried so much to hold It down  

Author's Note

A poem from the perspective of someone with an eating disorder please review and be honest as always

Reviews

[A]

We all struggle or struggled at some point in our lives because of weight issues, too thin too fat and if we were lucky enough we'd get over it without reaching the point of disorder, I'm really glad you brought it up it's rare to find poems about this subject, and it's well written.. I like it.

[cfix]

Bullemina is a horrible disease.
This is a truthful write.

[Akshat♥]

A truthful poem..
i really liked it..
i can easily relate to it:)

[Becky Lawrence]

This poem is great. The first person perspective really gets the idea across. I know a girl that struggles with emotional eating and often beats herself down for her weight and has started to starve herself, so this poem hit home for me.

[howlfjdks]

I dislike we are so stuck on weight in our society. It's so bad for kids. It's a superficial world we live in. If everyone was just real we wouldn't have this problem.

[Deactivated_BurningDemo..]

Bulimia if I'm not mistaken? It's a truthful poem. It states things many other poets would avoid. The first person view adds the impact to the reader. I like this one. Well done.