Flight of Steps

a circle of sorts, ongoing... reuploading still...

If life

Is what you make

Of it

Than what the hell

Am I doing wrong

Because I’ve tried

And failed

(Clearly)

Numerous times

And you have yet to fall

But it’s a long way down

I know

Because I’ve been pushed

Down those steps of stairs

Before

And I lost count

Of all the flights

I was knocked out

At the end

So forgive me

If it’s hard

To smile again

This pain

Is just too real

Oh, to never have to

Feel

Like this again

What would I do

For a better state

Of oblivion

Cause we know

Ignorance is bliss

I need that five letter word

That makes me acknowledge

Something other than your

Eyes

Because all I can seem to see

Are the lies

Now

Be my king of the world

Because I’m jumping off this boat

I mean this ship

Because this melody

Lacks any words that I can

Shove down your throat

Reminding you of what was

Nothing but more empty spaces

Of what I thought I made

Something out of

But you’re just another force of nature

Can I be the water

If you’re the hurricane

Cause I would

Love to balance someone out

When it seems I have no opposing

Force

 

So no,

I’m not ok

Thanks for pretending

Like

You cared

Because you and I

Just cannot be compared

If I wasn’t indifferent

I wish like hell that I was scared

Maybe then I could be

Somewhat prepared