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About Me

I write...and sometimes, it's because it feels like it's all I can do...

I was born in Lawton, OK. ( a place for me that has never been home.) I was immediately thrust to Europe, and settled in Italy with my Navy parents where I realized a day in preschool for the first time that I'd never fit in anywhere. The first two books I remember reading at that age...were Stephan King's IT, and Pinnochio.
Went to Georgia...got lost. (literally. But a really big dog collar/name tag with all my information on it rectified that, but then...) At age four, I was introduced to bullies, and called a "f****t" for the very first time. Got my first dog, and named her after a girl who asked me to tie her shoes everyday. First creature I ever loved...first love I ever lost. Then Chicago...and my first time to the theater...Batman Returns. (Where I fell in love with Tim Burton!...and leather...and catsuits!) After that, it's a rush of memories.
I started writing when I was 11...short stories, fantasy and science fiction. Since then I've been homeless, a w***e, a friend and many a lover, forgotten, and abused, cheated and used, praised, revered, raped and molested, someone actually thinks I am the devil, and I was once someone's entire world and life support. (I seem to have way with people.) All of these things have taken me from science fiction fantasy, to morose poetics. I was told the other day by someone I might end up sleeping with in the future that my writing is passionate, and "strangely erotic while morbid"...This describes me to a fault.

I am currently 21. I'm in the Air Force, and stationed at Barksdale AFB in Louisiana. I hate it here...but since I lost my concept of home so long ago...I don't really "like" it anywhere. I really like fruit, and music.
They are the orgasmic forces in my life. I don't want to die, though being alive is pretty horrible most times, and aweful at best, and I'd like to see the sky on fire just once. I was on deviantart (quietboy.deviantart.com), but I guess it wasn't really...motivating. I've written much poetry, and someday when I'm not so mislery, it will become a book...I will also start playing guitar once I find the will power to stop browsing chat rooms.

I feel like I'm looking for something...I don't know what it is, or if I even trust the feeling, and because of this, I feel like i may never find it...


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Posted 17 Years Ago



Use Your Imagination 2 Contest

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Posted 17 Years Ago


share your pain... though now i'm deadly tired as i just spilled my soul (err maybe not soul but my mind is running on limited power) in an 'essay' I think... perhaps... i'll resort to some good ol' chamomile tea, have you tried chamomile tea? It usually helps me towards a good 3 hours rest... a full night if i drink enough of it :) i'm rambling, dreadfully sorry.

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Posted 17 Years Ago


Can't sleep either eh?

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Posted 17 Years Ago


you pretty much hit the emotions felt while writing Mirror Image,righton the head. Pinpoint even!

thank you for the review :)

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Posted 17 Years Ago


Thank you for your reviews; I was really flattered!

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Posted 17 Years Ago


Thank you for the reiews.
I really appreciate it.


-R.

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Posted 17 Years Ago


Why must it be "innocent"? lol. I understand COMPLETELY what you mean by that...because I feel the same way, but usually I'm the first to say that four letter word and then I freak people out.

So thank you, Mister, for YOUR honesty and your openness. YOu rock!

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Posted 17 Years Ago


thank you for the comment. that was the first write of the kind that i've attempted. perhaps i'll try another.
be well.
j

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Posted 17 Years Ago


LOL, thanl you. You're personality intrigues me. I hope to get to know you better.

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Posted 17 Years Ago


Very close in fact... was just on base the other day. My boyfriend's stationed there as well :)