Write = Get Reviews Forum I wish I could of kept you

As I opened my eyes the sun still barley up, I feel this indescribable hunger creeping through my gut. That moment the first thought crossed my mind, And I was lost at the reality I was about to find. . . So I went back and I checked the date, Empty inside when I realise I'm 3 weeks late. Trying to continue life in denial, But no matter what it would all have to hit me in just a little while, Then two mornings later when I awoke, I got up for my usual coffee and smoke As I felt my lungs inhale that first puff Suddenly I couldn't get to the toilet fast enough. Two words continuously running through my mind 'morning sick' 'morning sick' Knees buckled, no tears just knowing this was it My life was about to change forever Weather I let you go or I keep us together I cant bring you into this evil place Or just make you a memory I try to erase I've still got so much to learn and so far to go Whyd did this happen now when my life's at it's all time low Why didn't I choose a better path To have been in the position to give you the chance to learn and laugh? I wish I could of felt you grow and talk to you in my tummy I wish I had a life to give you and a chance to be your mummy People try to tell me your just a little jelly bean You haven't even grown your fingers or toes, so letting you go it's not that mean You may not have fingers or toes but you have a heart That's beating off mine and It's impossible not to fall apart I try pretend that your not really in there Continuously telling myself that I don't even care But the truth is, I just wish I knew if you were a boy or a girl And how holding you in my arms would really feel I wonder what it would of sounded like to hear your cries, Would you of stared at me through brown or blue eyes? There's a million and one things I'll never no about you But yet the reasons why I love you well theres a million and two And if I could go back and have you here there's nothing I wouldn't do I wish there was something to assure me that you really knew That I mean every single word I write And that you hear me when I say I love you and goodnight And so it's finally came to that time I try to tell myself in a few hours ill be fine your innocent soul will be In the heavens above And you have wings now little angel so spread those wings my love embrace that beauty in our sky As I try tell myself I done the right thing giving you the power to fly. I no that Heaven might seem far away But mummy's getting closer each and everyday But till then I'll look about the Sky and dream into the sun I'll think about you everyday and question what I've done But Just because your gone I hope that people see You were still my child, you were growing inside of me I miss you and I love you But I'll See you soon my baby boo!

This is honestly the most touching piece of writing in awhile. You are a courageous woman and I admire your strength.