Dianne

I'm a new writer. Oh, I've written stuff for work and such over the years, technical writing, lesson plans, resumes; you know the usual stuff of life. Instead I was always a reader. I read like crazy and often I would rewrite what I was reading in my head, but I wasn�t a writer so of course I never put anything down on paper.

A lot of my resistance to writing had to do with my fear of being known for who I really am. So I hid and I never wrote anything in the least personal or creative. What stayed in my head was safe, what was put on paper could be used against me. I was most definitely paranoid! But being paranoid doesn�t mean they're not out to get you!

Learning to trust my self is really what got me over being paranoid. I found out it wasn�t that I didn�t trust others; it was that I didn�t trust my self enough to follow my own intuition. If I couldn�t trust myself how could I possible trust others? Acknowledging that my intuition really does know things that can�t be explained logically has freed me to follow where it leads. Now that I trust myself I don�t have to fear others.

My childhood was unique and consequently my view of the world is also. My mother was divorced and severely depressed and because of that was frequently not active in my life. From the age of two I was getting dressed on my own and walking down the street to the baby sitter while my mother slept after working night shift. I don't remember ever not being able to read. I do remember not being able to read well. Mom would write up a pictogram of what I was to have for breakfast using pictures for the words that were too big for me to read. I would feed myself, dress and then head down the street to the baby sitter's until Mom got up some time in the afternoon. As you can imagine, I'm a bit independent and resistant to taking orders, not a good combo for enlisting in the Navy which I did at the age of 17. I survived and so did the Navy, just barely. lol

Contrary to the impression you might get from reading some of my stories, I am not the least bit religious! Religion is all about humans telling other humans how to live, what to believe, how to act and how to relate to the Devine. I think I can figure that out for myself, thank you very much! I enjoy exchanging philosophical ideas and beliefs, but I don't have any need for you to agree with me and I only seek to understand your point of view not join you in it.

I'm eclectic, a rainbow person if you will. I enjoy variety and contrast and revel in meeting people who are different from the crowds and me (that's a good thing since I haven't found anyone who is even kind of like me). Strangely enough, the more I've accepted me as I am, warts and all, so to speak; the more I like other people.