You will find mewith my head in my handstears down my facestuck in a memoryof happier timeswhen you were hereand everything was fine.You will find meb..
NewI am fresh like a pagewaiting and anticipatingthe first drop of inkto mark me and define me.Newmu body is refreshedI am not the same as I was year ..
I sit here wondering"Am I in control of my lifeor is my life controlling me?"Staring blankly at the wallwatching for things to changebut they never do..
I start my mornings the same wayrolling over to see that you are hereand that I am safeknowing that nothing can touch mebecause your arms are the safe..
I cannot make my own decisions,let alone make any with precisionSo I leave all the heavy choices to you,the one who knows alland is still open to sugg..
Open my eyesso that maybe I can seethis world of beauty that youpraise and speak of so highlySo that maybe one dayI too can have a mind sofree and wil..
I am sorrythat I am not themost beautiful of womenbut my soul is made upof all the people I have metand I have taken the best parts of myselfand paint..
When I am not with youI fall to piecesand I fear that I ambeyond repairuntil I run into your armswhich hold me safelyand piece me back togetherso I ca..
This year has beenone of two halvessadness intertwined withso many beautiful momentsthat opened my eyesto the reality of how life really isthat there ..