Jonathan Gallagher

At the start I was merely a boy with a great sense of the greater good. I went through life as best as I knew how, looking at the world and trying to comprehend most of what I could. In looking at the world though I noticed that nothing is as it seems, there are layers that go deeper than the human eyes can see and that was the start of my fall. I was left with more questions than answers, and far more uncertainties than what I started with, and with that I understood what was meant by "ignorance is bliss." We are in a constant search to understand the universe that surrounds us, we take comfort in the facts that we find, and in the mean time the world that we live in shrinks smaller and smaller.

I spent many years wallowing in this knowledge, it didn't grant any feelings of serenity to know how the world worked, and no sense of the greater good...only cold harsh reasoning. In knowing that the world held no great wonderment I was left with a hallow feeling, like my faith had been carved out of me and sold to the highest bidder. With nothing to believe in I walked around my life forsaking all contact with the world around me. I watched the people my age, happy, joyful, and full of hope parading around with a feeling that they belonged, and I grew resentful...I wanted more than anything to have that feeling. To feel connected with them, the people they knew, and the world around me, but I knew I never would... I would always separate myself from them, and the world, because I knew that if I grew to understand how the connection works I would let down my guard and be easily hurt by those around me.

In secret desire to feel apart of the world I started to write what I felt inside, through out history people have expressed themselves through many forms of art...and they left their mark on the world. I was praised in my efforts, and people tried to disect the literal meaning of the poems I wrote. My poems told the story of a side of me that people rarely got to see, and by that sealing my fate as the one with the words...