Jane Doe

I am eighteen years of age and growing up is my biggest fear.
I am a total mess nothing in my life goes as planned , but I am content. I cant drink something if there aren't 3 ice cubes in it. if there are none thats fine but there has to be 3 if ice is in it. if not I get anxious and cant drink whatever it is.I want out of the labels. I don't want my whole life crammed into a single word. A story. I want to find something else, unknowable, some place to be that's not on the map. A real adventure. A sphinx. A mystery. A blank. Unknown. Undefined.
I want to be a hippie, work in construction, and be a pirate, a photographer. I want to be homeless, make it into Broadway, become a writer .I want to work in a fish market, become a painter, a ballet teacher. I want to be an astronaut.