Shaiya

look in my mirror day in and day out..wondering what i look like to everyone else..why cant i feel good about the way i look, i cry just to see if i cry beautifully...i dont..everything about me is ugly..being called names like Scaryann..by guys who know nothing of my personality. why cant they see the real me..on the inside i have the spirit of an eagle..waiting for my freedom...always hiding in the library or behind a book..waiting for my chance at stardom..inside i want to be noticed but i dont have the bravery to try..always afraid of my shadow and whats inside.

Likes:

books mostly...i like to watch myself bleed..just to know im alive, i like looking at my blood the way it feels against my skin the way it tastes like on my lips and tongue..watching out my window at what is happening..sitting in the grass watching my dog run and play. seeing children swing happily with their moms and dads alike.

Dislikes:

being screamed and yelled at..being told i need to be "saved" by my so called friends who believe in that christian stuff...saying i will be prayed for...makes me sick to my stomache...people that call others names and pick on them...hurting them. i dont like violense to others...