Leila Janaki Dean

You have a different view of who I am than anyone else that knows me. You. . . whoever you are that may be reading this. . . know me as the "Leila" you know. . . I'm not really sure I could explain me to you as well as you can to yourself. . . and that is what makes us amazing as Human Beings. I am only who I am through my own eyes. But you make me different.

That said, I am a 33 year old, happily married mother of One. My name is pronounced like the name in that love song by Eric Clapton, even though it's spelled differently . . . and now it's in your head for the next few minutes. I'm in Tech Sales because it makes money and I'm good at it, but I would rather be making money writing, acting, scouting talent or booking Rock bands. I weigh all of my choices carefully, and logically, and almost always end up going with my gut in the end: it has rarely been wrong. Someone once called me a contradiction wrapped in an enigma. I told him to seek therapy: I am a mirror, no more, no less.

I don't think of myself as different, and if you tell me that I am I will ask you if you are sure it isn't really you that's odd. I am loyal to a fault, which has often brought me trouble, but I refuse to learn my lesson and will always trust and respect those that reciprocate. I don't pay much attention to reputation because beautiful people are never who others say they are, and all people are inherently beautiful. I seek peace and beauty, but my emotions swing on the same pendulum as everyone else's, so sometimes I lash out. I am staunchly against the government in it's current, fascist form and will never allow myself be microchipped.

Poets/ lyricists/ writers I like include, but are not limited to, Alan Kaufman, Jim Carroll, Corey Taylor, Tuli Kupferberg, Henry Rollins, Bruce Isaacson, Maynard James Keenan, Sting, Rumi, Thom yorke, Bob Dylan, Chris Martin, Shel Silverstien, Stephen King, Jane Austen, William Shakespeare, Edgar Allan Poe, Edward Gorey, Rudyard Kipling, Tom Robbins, Neil Gaman, Terry Pratchett and J.R.R. Tolkien.

I ramble. . . this isn't supposed to be a book. . . yet.