Everchanging Disaster

The names Loeva...as in (L0W)-[E]-{VAH} Well I am living at home. Which is probably one of the best places for me. I was into some pretty bad trouble about two years ago but I consider myself fully rehabilitated. I literally weeded out all the evil from my life. I'm open minded & free spirited. I love to sing whether it sounds good or not. I get pretty crazy sometimes and I'm not patient. (apparently i am a "nagger") I get it from my grandma who lights up my life. I like everyone until i don't but there are very few people I LOVE, I can actually count them on two hands: Gramma, Cody, Jennifer & Sherry Mills, Sam, Larry & Donna, Crystal, Sam & Ashton-maybe a few others, but these are the ones that make my life worth living. For once everything is perfect and for the first time in a long time I feel like nothing can change that. I wake up everyday and can't imagine anywhere else i could be that would make me this happy. They say if you can make a girl laugh, you can make her do anything and i'm not sure if people realize how easy it is to make me laugh. I thought I found love once but i really found my best friend, he inspires me everyday to be a better person and i thank him for that. I wish him every ounce of happiness he can carry. I find joy in very simple things, counting how many days it takes for the blooms of a tree to turn into leaves, walking barefooted on long cool grass, taking pictures and trying to capture real beauty to save it for later. I mean it may sound stupid but until this year I never really paid attention to anything. I was just dying-little by little. Now I am living. It's really like I got a second chance & I pay such attention to detail that I even notice what tree is the first to have leaves in the spring. I can recall every kiss & every hug and every touch from the last 12 months. I made a vow not to waste another second of my life and so far i have kept it. I don't want to know how my life will turn out because that would just make everything in between, killing time. I don't just drive through life-i take it all in, it makes me smile and my heart is overflowing with life. The people I love-and who love me, take me as I am...you should too.