Lying Is My Hobby

I'm obsessed with writing the 'perfect plot'.

I honestly don't care about details and such unless they contribute to the plot or the intended effect of the story.

The problem is, I don't know what the 'perfect plot' is. I've came up with dozen good plots, but I discarded them all because I couldn't see the perfection in them. And even if I had came up with the perfect plot, I would have discarded it anyway; I could not recognize a perfect plot unless i know what 'perfect' means.
So here is the hardest part of story writing for me: plot-planning. I've spent hours or days contemplating the events...but came up with nothing.

The plot of the story is the skeletal system of a human body. It's the basic structure of the story. It gives the story shape, and keeps it from falling apart. All the details like describing the scene is the skin of a human body. It covers the muscular system and makes the story look pretty. Well, I don't care about pretty. I want a complex plot that will blow your mind, leave you in an aura of disbelief and devastation. I want you to feel the way i want you to feel; when you read the twist and turns in my stories, I want you to be shocked and stunned.