Eliza

How I am?
What kind of person I am?
I don't know, and I don't think a single person on this world knows it about him- or herself.
People call me a freak, a goth the strange girl from the next door.
I'm a friend, a daughter and sister.
Most say that they can't get me, that they can't read me and most times don't know what to expect off me.
I'm emotional, and sometimes cold inside.
I do what I feel right, even sometimes it's probably not.
I'm the German girl who loves the English language more than her own.. who speaks with her best friend most times english because both like it more.
I'm the girl who would get up at midnight to help a person who she dislikes and the person hates her, if she had problems.
I'm the girl who favors helping people even through getting hurt by it badly again and again.
I'm the girl closing her door sometimes and with this closing her soul for a few days.
I'm the girl who believes in magic, and the magic of words.
I'm the girl who loves and hates beeing alone.
I'm the girl off who's door you can't pass by without hearing music blaring or softly ringing in your ear.
I'm the girl most don't understand.
I'm the girl most don't care to understand, the freak in the corner, the outstander.
I'm the girl that cares so much, and also cares about nothing.
I'm the girl of contradictions.