A Thousand Benjamins

A Thousand Benjamins

Verse 1

For the first time, I love someone

I never thought it was possible

That person does not love me back

But I'm just fine with that

The only thing that bothers me

Is that he's with somebody else

I'm no longer the center of his attention

I have become his former lover

I desperately want to be with him

Be close to him in every sense of the word

Verse 2

I deeply care about the man

Whom I fell for

I love him more than I love myself

He became my world, my home

The only part of him which I have are memories

Every little detail embedded within my heart, my mind

Bridge

Mmmmm, ooohhh, mmmmmm

Shy bordering on anti-social

Longing for conversation

Independent bordering on selfishness

Wanting a friend or two

Unrealistic views bordering on insanity

Needing to change my luck

Inaction bordering on indifference

Refusing to harm myself

Mmmmm, mmmmm

Chorus 1

Ecstatically happy, then depressingly sad

Joyful and disappointed

Delightfully surprised, then stunningly upset

Amazed and angry

Chorus 2

Genuinely optimistic, then distressingly apprehensive

Proud and confused

Wonderfully interested, then violently annoyed

Caring and insensitive

Optimistic, apprehensive - a thousand Benjamins, a thousand Benjamins

Interested, annoyed - a thousand Benjamins, a thousand Benjamins

Happy, sad - a thousand Benjamins,  a thousand Benjamins

Amazed, angry - a thousand Benjamins, a thousand Benjamins

Written by B. (Monday, September 5, 2005)

Copyright 2005